When everything falls apart, when everything comes crashing down, when she is all stressed out, when she is all happy and excited, when she hears a particular song or see a particular item, when she is just out there staring into the sky from Hong Kong, when she started checking her memory bank… there she was, her dear friend whom filled more than a decade of memories inside. Now she wishes she could turn back time and bring things back to where they were before. Too many misunderstandings and no communication.
A good friend slapped her back to reality with these words “Self-proclaimed best friends”. ‘To you, she is everything; your best friend. To her, you are just another friend.’ Another friend said best friends only exist in fairytales and she stopped believing them since she was 14. It got her thinking real hard. Maybe its just her. Maybe there weren’t no best friends afterall. What went wrong? She had no idea. She believes in her as much as she believes in herself. She didn’t see a change coming, she held on while she unfolds a new journey… without her. There is still so much she wana share with her… you are family.
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She always believes in ‘their 101% rule’. She thought it was like when they were schooling and that things are still the same when it never was anymore. Nobody is asking for credit but when she helped you, u acknowledged her for her credit. You don’t keep quiet and leave things as it is. So many times and still, nothing has changed. Some people are more talented and creative, that is inborn. You have her to help you and she has always been giving her all. You are very pretty but your actions are not showing.
Too many incidents and too many explanations. Its too tedious and her poor soul cannot handle any of it already. Seems similar yet so different. She isnt blind nor deaf, and she can certainly see and hear every reactions and tone. She simply chooses to stay dumb n deaf at times. Till now she still believed in ‘their 101% rule’ yet reality is telling her to let go.
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*cynical, jaded and never the same*
“Dont be too hard on yourself”, she tells herself.
When she finally lets go, she found what she has been looking for. She felt happier, lighter and everything around her seems more breathable. She made new friends and found more time for old friends. She found herself. She is back; infact she never left, she just like hanging around and being with closer friends around her then. There will a point in life you realise who really matters, who never did and who really will.
